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1:08 a.m., Tuesday, February 26:

These are different from AJ’s…chocolate chunk, oatmeal raisin, peanut butter and sugar with M&Ms, enormous and rapidly replacing the 13 pounds I lost between New Year’s Day and Valentine’s Day. It’s totally killing me – I was doing so well. Today I start yoga (signed up for it last week). I was in the groove, man…

and then I made myself a promise to have my current (very long ongoing) project finished by February 29. I said, “Self, you could get up early and go to the gym…or you could throw yourself into finishing this book.” I changed my diet commitments to yoga twice a week and trying to eat reasonably healthy. The eating isn’t going ideally, but it’s limping along with a small degree of satisfaction. More important, though, is this temporary hold on life is getting me through the book. It’s at 24,000 words now. The target is 30,000 words. I’m sure I’ll add a scene or two, subtract a scene or two in revisions, but right now I’m feeling SO CLOSE to the end and it’s glorious. I have this big breath of relief hanging out in my chest, just waiting for the moment I type t…h…e… e…n…d.

I’m looking forward to this as more than the completion of a project. For me, this end will also be a fresh start – life wise, health wise, writing wise. Everything will be back on a schedule that I command (more or less). No contracts for work pending, no APS (Author Panic Syndrome, thank you Teresa), no “but I should do this instead of hit the gym.”

I’ll still be writing (I’m more eager than ever to write) but I’ll be the one driving the car, not a (many times missed) deadline. This is a great time for a new start – it’s almost spring.

Guess I have to throw the cookies away and get to the gym Tuesday morning.

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